Year In Review

It only seems appropriate to talk about the last year. Maybe next week I'll talk about the new year and what i want/expect/hope for, etc.
I had another post prior to this one and deleted it. I talked about the ups and downs of this year and realized boy it actually sounded like we had more downs then ups!? Why is it the bad news surpasses the good stuff!? Why can't i remember all the great things that happened like I do the bad.
For instance....the passing of DH's aunt in February. Very sad indeed. She fought a heck of a battle with cancer. She was such a pillar for the family. She is missed greatly, no doubt. But I know death is inevitable. We need to hang on to the memories and that we have plenty of. I'm so thankful C'man got to spend 3 years with her and i know he'll never forget them. We talk about her often and when we get balloons we will release them up to heaven for Maxine.

Then there was the miscarriages. Still so fresh in my memory. I questioned if I was ready to be pregnant, or could even handle another child. Was that what took that little baby away from us to soon? Why after 5 IVF cycles and years prior of trying for a child was it becoming so easy for me to get pregnant? But then remembering those years are what make me who I am today. I think of all the babies that will greet me in heaven. There are many and many.

The frustrations with raising a strong willed 2 year old. Will I ever figure her out!? Doubtful. But what can we do not to make life manageable for us all. Will reading all the books help me? Do I need to turn to professional help? Don't laugh. I'm seriously considering it.

How is C'man's BM doing? We think of her often and really would like to reach out to her. But how and should we?

There's more, but no need to go any further b/c I want to think of the great things that happened this year. The accomplishments of not only myself, but our family.
We got to be a part of an election year! That was one heck of a way to start off the new year with the Iowa Caucuses. I still like Huckabee and probably always will. I don't think Obama is the right man for the job but then I'm not 100% sure who that would be. I'm excited to see the change he keeps talking about and for everyone's sake, I hope he can do just that. We need change, agree, but i worry about some of the changes he'll bring. But lets pray for the best!

This summer we had a great vacation to NJ. It was such a nice time for our family and so very kind of L & M to open there home and lives to us. We enjoyed ourselves so much. Went to our first Broadway show in NYC and spent a day at the ocean. I love the Atlantic ocean and I miss everything about it. The warm sand b/w my toes, the hot sun on my back, the crashing waves, the seagulls, the smell and yes even the taste of salt water. Love it!!

Planting and harvesting was safe for DH and his brother. Altho it took a long time to get harvest out, every one was safe. Farming is such a dangerous job. Crop prices are/were great this year and that afforded us a little better lifestyle this year. Our garage got sheet rocked, newer van, and here soon the trim work put up on our kitchen. While we know the prices won't stay that good, they already aren't, we are thankful for a good year for once! I really think the farmers deserved it. Well at least us small family farmers. Not many of us around anymore.

The kids have stayed relatively healthy. Can't complain really at all. Just the flu and minor colds. We are so blessed there!! Aside from my stinking root canal I had we are OK over on that side of things.

I'm content to be home. It took me at least 6-9 months to adjust to being home full time. I have adjusted, even tho i was so sad to see summer go. I seriously was depressed for 2 weeks when the weather turned colder and I knew Fall was on the way. I feel it's the best place for the kids for me to be home. I have the rest of my life to make a career and quite frankly i feel i had a career for 8 years and now it's time for a family. Can't have both!

I worked out a lot this past year and need to get back on track. I'm happy with my body image, accept for my stomach LOL!

So yeah, i think i found enough good in all the bad! Really it's been a good year. No major happenings, or at least what i would consider major. I have my family, my DH's family, all doing well. I have been blessed with great friends and continue to be blessed by meeting new friends. Isn't facebook great!!

Can I just add how hard it is to blog with 2 kids running around and fighting. I hope this makes sense:)